I told you last night that I might be gone sometime, and you said, Where, and I said, To be with the Good Lord, and you said, Why, and I said, Because I’m old, and you said, I don’t think you’re old. And you put your hand in my hand and you said, You aren’t very old, as if that settled it.
And so begins Marilynne Robinson's award-winning novel, Gilead. I've heard about this literary treat for years and finally resolved to read it in 2021. The novel's main character, Rev. John Ames, and I share a few things in common: we are both ordained ministers (he in the Congregational tradition, I in the Methodist tradition), we are both aging (I in my mid-50s and he in his late 70's), we both have loquacious, interior lives (his reflecting back into the late 1800s, mine reflecting back into the late 1900s), we both desire to leave a legacy (neither of us with much in terms of financial largesse, but much in the depths of life's interiority).
This is not a fast-paced piece ridden with glib conversation and surface characterization. While it does not require immersion in the 1950s (the era in which he writes this, his personal memoir) nor the cacophony that was Kansas and Iowa in the pre- and post-Civil War era (the era of his grandfather, an ardent and eccentric abolitionist, about whom he reflects often), it does require an appreciation for the way the human heart and mind process time, relationships and legacy.
Briefly, the story encapsulated in the midst of Ames' reflective work is that of a Congregational minister and a Presbyterian minister who are neighbors in small-town Iowa. Friends from the time they were young, Ames describes the texture of a relationship that has morphed over the years. At the center of the story is Ames' young son, his only biological son born from his marriage to a woman more than 40 years his junior. In the background, and making an occasional appearance, is his namesake, though not his biological son. His namesake, the son of his Presbyterian minister, is a befuddled, spiritually vacuous, doubter who is never able to make a sound decision.
Robinson captures the essence of what it means to make peace with one's past, as well as insightfully helps the reader traverse the complexities of lifelong relationships, their joys and disappointments. While a serious book, it is not somber, and it is peppered with brief witticisms on the memoirist's part, appropriate to a health-challenged, aging man in his late 70's
It is, all told, a taste of the biblical "balm of Gilead," a time of gentle reflection, capturing the lamentations of aging and the deep-set need to leave a meaningful legacy for the next generation.

